You

 

　

You are you, wonderful, perfect, a masterpiece. Those eyes so dark and deep. That smile warm enough to make a cold heart sing. Your sound reassuring, your presence a comfort.

You are the sun as it shines on the daisy field, the wind that rushes through my hair, the melody of the sweet humming bird, the stream that flows care free. You are the sky, so blue and vast. The North Star, ever present and shining bright. The moon, in all its glory casting light on dark summer nights. The rain as it pours from the heavens above, washing away sorrows and giving way for the sun to shine bright!

You are the very breath I take, the blink of my eye, the twirl of my hair, the touch of my hand, the softness of my lip, the sound that resonates within my ear.

You are you, but not just you, you are me too, and everything in between...

Lettes to My Inner Demons - II

Dear Nightmares and Terrors,
                                    Oi! I thought we had a deal? You said you'd not bother me on nights when I had to interact with people the next day, and yet you broke your word. You went back on it, all they noticed those puffy swollen eyes, with the dead look. They asked questions, someone almost did, what would I have said? "Oh hiiii, its nothing, I'm all good, but my nightmare buddy couldn't help but stay away, he missed me", that's what I would have said? You moron! Do you realize that hey have a wager set now? Counting the days till I finally go back to my melancholic ways, they almost thought they'd won.
   Just because you decided now would be a good time to not keep your word, I had to pay the price. I had to take all those sympathetic stares, those questioning eyes, wondering what was wrong with me. these eyes of mine, they get puffy and swollen, becoming chinks in my well made armor, some were actually almost skipping with excitement.
   I'm really mad at you for it, I mean how hard is it really? To just not BE! I mean look at me, I know all about not being, about barely existing, I do just fine don't I? I mean there's the melancholy thing and the irritation thing, oh and the anger thing, but the point is, if I can keep a lid on my existence, so can you! I mean, get a grip already, appearing at inappropriate moments, scaring the hell out of me, waking me up all drenched in cold sweat, I know those are fun things for you to do, but hey, a deal is a deal, stand by it. I said I'd give you your due time, your importance, not even complain or ask questions, if you stick to the deal and I will, when the time is right, come on man, I have a good thing going right now, happy feelings, occasional butterflies, I barely lose my temper these days, oh and I'm cooking again, so you get the picture?
     There will surely be a time for you, when I'd even welcome you, consider you a distraction, from the horrible truth of everyday life, but its not now, now I'm in a happy place, so just relax okay? take it easy, go be someone else's friend for a while, the point is, stay away!
 I better not have to warn you again, you'd know when to come back, look for the signs!

Yours Truly,

A-Little-Too-Happy-Me

Letters to my Inner Demons - I

Dear Agony,

And so we meet again, in our secret hollow in the darkness of this quiet night. I know you have been waiting for this, I saw the impatience in the way you lingered around me as I moved through the motions of the day, I saw you wince when I smiled, I saw your anger when I laughed, I knew you thought I'd forgotten you, but how could I, aren't you and I one? Aren't we two sides of the same coin? Am I not the reflection you see when you peer at the crystal surface of the river?

Indeed I am more you than I am me, indeed I exist more in you than I ever could in me, how could you ever doubt me? I could try, but I know I'd fail to exist aside from you, without you the glitch in my existence would be so great that nothing else could fill it. You are the path that brought me here.

I know that I don't visit often and you think that I am moving on, but I can hardly leave you behind. Never let this current state of mine let you think that I don't love you, that I have forgotten. There is nothing else if not you.  This, all of it, can't have come to be, had it not been for you, my love, my one true bit.  Never forget that. Never doubt the power you have.

I love you, I always have, always will.

Forever  Yours,

Me