Lines in the sand

As I lie here in the dark, staring out at the moon that shines in the dark sky, sleepless again, I let the monster out, trying to discover the method to my madness, as I take a walk on the sandy beaches of my mind trying to find my way around, walking barefoot on the soft warm sand as the waves of words, feelings, emotions and even time itself washes over to the shore. The winds whisper long forgotten secrets in my ears, reminding me a lot that once was. It is all serene except for that monster within me which surges in my veins free now that the night has fallen; it controls me it makes me remember...

 

 

*Hello ... Flash ... Goodbye ... Flash ...The Promise Un kept ... Flash ...The Fear ... Flash ...The Truth Mingled With Lies ... Flash ...Warm Food ... Flash ... Sunshine ... Flash... A Whisper....Flash...A Phone call ... Flash ... Pain ... Flash ...The Grass ... Flash ... The Scent of A Body ... Flash ... A Smile...Flash...The Questions ... Flash ... You ... Flash ... Time ... Flash ... Space ... Flash ... Closeness ... Flash ... Wind ... Flash ... A Hand ... Flash ... That Song  ...  Flash ...What The Eyes Saw ... Flash... Running Away... Flash... Finding My Way Back ... Flash ... A Wish ... Flash ... Today ... Flash ... Tomorrow ... Flash ... Forever ... Flash ... Lost ... Flash ... No ... Flash ...Tears ... Flash … Firefly ... Flash ... A Home ... Flash ... The Sea  In Those Eyes ... Flash ... The Moment That Never Ended ... Flash ... No Ordinary Day ... Flash ... A Scrap Of Paper ... Flash ... Rain ... Flash ... Sunshine ... Flash ...That Kiss ... Flash ...Those Texts ... Flash ... A Walk ... Flash ... Sigh ... Flash ... Blue ... Flash ... Purple ... Flash ... Green ... Flash ... Red ... Flash ... Orange ...Flash... Gold ... Flash ... Black ... Flash ... Grey ... Flash ... White ... Flash ... Yellow ... Flash ... Nothing ... Flash ... One Moment ... Flash ... Noise... Flash... Unrest ... Flash ... Heavy Breathing ... Flash ... A Memory ... Flash ... Sickness ... Flash ... Health ... Flash ... A Dream … Flash ... Wakefulness ... Flash ... Nightmares ... Flash ... Water... Flash ...  A Cry … Flash ... Belief... Flash ... Doubt ... Flash ... An Angry God ... Flash ... Anger... Flash ... Wrath ... Flash ...  Screaming ... Flash ...  Running ... Flash ... Tunnel ... Flash ... Darkness … Flash ...The Fall ... Flash ... A Dying Heartbeat ...Thump ...Thump ...Thu ... Silence*

Some of it I gladly take in from other stuff I cringe but as all this happens I keep walking on, into the abyss and another night has passed, with no questions answered, the madness slows down within me, and the monster shrinks and returns to the confinement of the dark room but  the quest will continue again tonight but for now dawn breaks and the day calls on to me in my human form.