Lettes to My Inner Demons - II

Dear Nightmares and Terrors,
                                    Oi! I thought we had a deal? You said you'd not bother me on nights when I had to interact with people the next day, and yet you broke your word. You went back on it, all they noticed those puffy swollen eyes, with the dead look. They asked questions, someone almost did, what would I have said? "Oh hiiii, its nothing, I'm all good, but my nightmare buddy couldn't help but stay away, he missed me", that's what I would have said? You moron! Do you realize that hey have a wager set now? Counting the days till I finally go back to my melancholic ways, they almost thought they'd won.
   Just because you decided now would be a good time to not keep your word, I had to pay the price. I had to take all those sympathetic stares, those questioning eyes, wondering what was wrong with me. these eyes of mine, they get puffy and swollen, becoming chinks in my well made armor, some were actually almost skipping with excitement.
   I'm really mad at you for it, I mean how hard is it really? To just not BE! I mean look at me, I know all about not being, about barely existing, I do just fine don't I? I mean there's the melancholy thing and the irritation thing, oh and the anger thing, but the point is, if I can keep a lid on my existence, so can you! I mean, get a grip already, appearing at inappropriate moments, scaring the hell out of me, waking me up all drenched in cold sweat, I know those are fun things for you to do, but hey, a deal is a deal, stand by it. I said I'd give you your due time, your importance, not even complain or ask questions, if you stick to the deal and I will, when the time is right, come on man, I have a good thing going right now, happy feelings, occasional butterflies, I barely lose my temper these days, oh and I'm cooking again, so you get the picture?
     There will surely be a time for you, when I'd even welcome you, consider you a distraction, from the horrible truth of everyday life, but its not now, now I'm in a happy place, so just relax okay? take it easy, go be someone else's friend for a while, the point is, stay away!
 I better not have to warn you again, you'd know when to come back, look for the signs!

Yours Truly,

A-Little-Too-Happy-Me