Dear Apprehensions and Misgivings,
It’s nice how you keep forgetting to stay away, annoyingly adorable almost. The first signs of trouble and there you are, making sure I question every breath I take. It would have been fun, watching you watch me destroy myself like this, but here I am, destroying myself like this so no it is not fun, it is not easy, it is hard. Very, very hard to overthink all the time. To ponder over things I am supposed to be sure of, day in and day out every second of every day. It is not okay, it is not right to invade someone’s privacy like that, to come and lodge yourself in a crack in someone’s brain just because you felt like it, you annoying little pair of parasites. Actually no, there is nothing little about you, you are huge, large and terrifying but I still have to stand up to you, I still have to find a way, because once upon a time I was sure of what I wanted and that has not changed. I still want the same things and I am going to get them, I am going to find a way to believe again. I can and I will and you two buggers would not be able to stop me. How’s that for a misgiving, huh?
Look I know you want to exist too and that I’m the perfect host but the thing is life is difficult as it is, it is downright excruciating. It’s hard enough to put one foot in front of another and then there is you. So you have to take a break, take a vacation, leave find someone else because I can’t have you any more, I hope you understand.
It’s nice how you keep forgetting to stay away, annoyingly adorable almost. The first signs of trouble and there you are, making sure I question every breath I take. It would have been fun, watching you watch me destroy myself like this, but here I am, destroying myself like this so no it is not fun, it is not easy, it is hard. Very, very hard to overthink all the time. To ponder over things I am supposed to be sure of, day in and day out every second of every day. It is not okay, it is not right to invade someone’s privacy like that, to come and lodge yourself in a crack in someone’s brain just because you felt like it, you annoying little pair of parasites. Actually no, there is nothing little about you, you are huge, large and terrifying but I still have to stand up to you, I still have to find a way, because once upon a time I was sure of what I wanted and that has not changed. I still want the same things and I am going to get them, I am going to find a way to believe again. I can and I will and you two buggers would not be able to stop me. How’s that for a misgiving, huh?
Look I know you want to exist too and that I’m the perfect host but the thing is life is difficult as it is, it is downright excruciating. It’s hard enough to put one foot in front of another and then there is you. So you have to take a break, take a vacation, leave find someone else because I can’t have you any more, I hope you understand.
Sincerely,
Me
Me
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